Labels: always keep the faith, challenge, lyrics
SETBO VILLAGE - Cambodia 
Today would've marked a long time for the both of us. 6 more days and we would be hitting our 5th month of being together, but more than 2 months ago, we broke the tie and separated. What can I say right now? I'm not writing this because I miss you. And I'm not writing this because I still love you. I'm writing this because I miss the person you used to be, and because I like to reminisce on the past. At first, yeah, I cried a lot because you broke up with me. It's pretty funny now that I look at it because I actually thought you were 'the one'. But I was just delusional, or what Quynh called it, 'Blinded by love.'
When you broke up with me, I was yes, broken. Sad, depressed, everything! I couldn't eat, sleep or talk because it just hurt so much. First day back at school I was so depressed I didn't smile one time, but seeing you smile made me even more depressed. Skip 2 weeks of being sad, I found out you broke up with me because you 'didn't love me anymore'. Sadness became angryness and I got pissed off, I started yelling at you, how immature. I wasn't sad anymore, I thought I was over you, and I started giving you these death glares I cooked up on my own every single day I saw you. I thought it was going really good..
Until I started getting those feelings back for you again. I thought that I had moved on but even though I was giving you those glares, you still were on my mind 24/7 every single time. So for about 3 weeks, I did everything I could to make sure I could see you but not make you think I was being suspicious. I could say that yes, I still hadn't gotten over you. And there was even one time where I got a water bomb thrown on your head which was quite funny, but then again, I only did it because I wanted you to think I was over you.
But then came a time where I was really down on my life with things that were happening. And so, I got up all my courage to try and talk to you again. I told you I was over the break up and wanted to be friends (Which, I was lying, I wasn't really over it), and we started talking like normal friends, you know, jokes and stuff. This continued for about 3 days until you had to go to Port Stevens. Funny thing was, you hooked up with some girl there. I say hooked up because your relationship didn't last very long with her. Her name was Hayley, and you hooked up with her during your first day at Port Stevens. Apparently you made out or some shit like that and then got together. At first, yes, I was so sad when I found out you were dating her because I still hadn't gotten over you. But you know what?
You dating that girl made me get over you faster than the speed of light which travels at 300 000 km a second, NO JOKE. I was so over you and it was so free just to be single and don't think about worthless jerks that hurt your heart. And it's true. Next time someone gets hurt, it won't be me. Next time you break up with someone, cheat on, have sex with, marry or even hurt/care for, it won't be me. And I'm so glad it wasn't. Because, yes, you were right. I do deserve so much better than you. I deserve a guy who can treat me better than how you treated me. You have no idea how much I hated being in that relationship and how I only stayed because I 'loved' you. And it's funny. Funny because no one is ever happy if they're in a relationship with you. Fine, disagree with me, but we all know how long relationships for you lasted.
And yes, I still stick to my motto 'Everyone falls in love only once. You can never fall out of love because love is too strong. Love only happens once'. You might be thinking 'That means you loved me and you can't be in love ever again' but you're wrong. Because now I know, maybe I didn't love you after all. Sure it was more than like, but it was also less than love. I don't love you. Never did, and never will. I couldn't feel any better.
Labels: rant
7 continents, 196 countries, 3400 capital cities, and 2 469 501 cities, pick any place you want to go. Don't lie to me. Everyone wants to travel at one point. To get away from their life and just ignore all the worries you have and then...relax. So let me ask you this. Out of everywhere, just one place, for a whole lifetime, where does your heart want you to go? Where will your brain pick? And what fate does destiny have installed for you?
So maybe right now, at this very moment, life isn't going so well, it isn't going according to your plan and you want out. Out of all the misery, the lies, betrayal and bullshit. I know I've been there, and I've had a lot of crap days where I just want out. I look at my house, at my ordinary house, and I just want to let go of all my problems and just relax. Maybe go shopping in France, or go to the beach in the Bahama's. I close my eyes for a few seconds and imagine what it would be like to travel and escape without coming back, but when I re-open them, reality comes soaking back in, and I realise it was all just a plain, incompetent, narrow-minded dream.
It's okay though. To want to just escape to a different country? Yeah, I bet everyone's felt that way at some point in their lives. What matters is, is that yes, dreams can come true. One day, you'll be able to see your dream become reality. Just think to yourself, you probably have about 78 years in your life span. 18 years will be spent in school, another 40 or so will be spent working, and the rest..well...fate has their own choices with what you do. My point is, after working and school-ling not to mention University, would you have a lot of years left to even do what you love? To travel? No..probably not. Why would you want to live the old cliche life of a human? You live life once. Get out there, see the world with your own eyes, not with books and videos.
Maybe I'm getting a bit off the track with what I was meant to be talking about. Traveling. Yeah, we've all been there, making lists about where we want to go in the future. I certainly know I've been bragging to my friends about how nice France is and how I would like to go there in the future. You can't resist the smell of fresh food being cooked in the cafe's, or the extraordinary sight seeing you could do, even the clothes you touch, buy, wear, smell! It all just runs through my mind, and I get more excited to go in the future even though it's so far away and out of my grasp. You shouldn't be scared to look at whats beyond your reach. I know people that hate flying, and hate heights, and plainly..just hate going over-seas. Yeah, so..the journey is a bit over the top with 14 hour plane flights and shitty airplane food, but remember the quote 'The destination is always worth it'. Because it is. Once you get there, you probably won't want to come back.
For those eager people that just can't to travel around the world. Yeah, trust me, I know what it feels like. Doesn't even the imagination of going to one of these places just blow your mind? It's fantastic at what you can do in a different country. Not only can you have fun but you can also broaden your knowledge and it may help you to be more civilized and learn different things about different cultures. It's the experience that makes it worth-while. We live our life once, this chance doesn't come very often. And who knows? In the future, maybe there won't be an Eiffel Tower, or a leaning tower of Pisa or maybe there won't be a great wall of China (Even though I will never go to China *cough AIR POLLUTION cough*).
France. Oh yeah you just gotta love that country. What can you hate about France really? There's sight-seeing, food, culture, THE ACCENT and the shopping! Even the buildings are just O-M-G Jizz in my pants. Europe is just amazing isn't it? It's centered around so much culture, history, landmarks, shopping, fun and love. I've never been there before, and it kills whenever I see pictures of Tower De Eiffel, but I'm not giving up. Soon, you'll see me posing in front of the Tower and taking a gazillion photo's like the cam-whore I am. Attendez-moi la France! Bisou bisou.
So I'm giving you all a chance now. Are you going to listen to me and travel in the future to amazing destinations then come back and tell me about it so I can get jealous? Or are you going to refuse to listen and keep sitting on your lazy fat ass until the time of your death comes around then you'll start walking off to your porch to have a sip of lemonade and come back in? Like how a prostitute can't choose her customers, the world won't come to you, you have to go to the world. Get up, start earning money, get a job and see the world! You won't regret it.
For the people who read all of this and actually took it into account, thanks for doing so, and sorry I ramble too much, I can't help it (It's actually cause I have too many pictures so I have to talk a lot otherwise I'm going to waste these beautiful photographs). And for those who didn't bother and just skimmed through this and are reading this now cause it's the end so they think I might conclude it off with a finishing statement, suck my duck. Yeah, you heard me. Suck my duck.
