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Joanne Elizabeth Ly
Currently 16, Studying at Hurlstone Agricultural High School. Living life one day at a time. I'm just your normal average girl who just likes to blog about her insecurities. I like to swear and I flip the finger a lot. I love my friends and without my family, I would not be the one I am now.

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Friday, February 11, 2011 5:29 PM

Love makes you stupid

Today was a bad day. No, let me rephrase. Bad doesn't even cut it. A lot of things went wrong at the same time. Today it was very hot; even though the weather report said that Sydney would get isolated showers. I guess the heat got to me, by the time it was around 12pm, I was suffering from heat stroke. I felt like I wanted to die. My head was hurting, I was feeling dizzy and I could barely walk. Added onto that was my super heavy bag. It was around 7-8 kilo's. I carried 2 textbooks, all of my exercise books, and my laptop, in one bag, the whole day, while it was boiling. Think that's bad? Yeah, no. My splinter from yesterday is actually a big red spot. I'm too scared to get a needle and remove it myself, and it hurts so much when I brush it lightly on something.

Don't get me wrong; I am a positive person. I thought today was actually going to be one of the best days I've ever experienced, but it turns out I was wrong, like always. Today was one of the shittiest days I've had at HAHS. Pure bullshit. Pure lies. Pure pain.

I told myself this year, that at Hurlstone, I would have one of the greatest years ever. I could feel it, 2011 was going to be a blasting year, nothing can stop me from smiling...except tears. I cried for the first time at school in 2011 today. It's been 2 weeks in school, and I managed to cry, spilling out my problems to Miss McQueen. What was wrong with me? I had no idea, I still don't know. All I know is that suddenly, I felt really weird. Really woozy, like my soul left my whole body. I felt like fainting, and I was hurting, physically and emotionally.

To top it all off, no one cared to ask if I was okay. A simple "Are you okay?" would have got me eternally grateful to that person. Today showed me the most caring sides of some people. There's a girl whom I thought only cared about herself, but today, when she saw me sitting down in front of a door, she offered me help, and she forced me to get up and go somewhere. Thanks. But you can't have a rainbow without the rain.

Don't you just hate it, when the day before was almost perfect, the atmosphere, the context, just everything was what you wanted? Then today, was the shittest most unbelievable day ever? Not even a single word spoken today. Don't you hate it when you have such a connection with someone, but then later on they pretend they don't know you? Not even a hi, not even a "How are you doing?", not even a "Are you okay?" "Are you sick?" "Are you hurting?"

Because no, I'm not okay. Yes, I am sick. And yes, for fucks sake, I was hurting.

Labels: rant, sad, school